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I'm a cutter
That's all I'll ever be
Once you've learnt that
Defining fact about me.

You'll call me mad
Assume that I'm sad
And that I want
Your help.

You'll check my arms
Only matters if you can see
But I can hide them
All over me.

You'll think I'm sick
Sick in the head
And that makes me feel
Like I want to be dead.

I don't do it
For attention
I don't do it
For a mention
I don't do it
To rebel.
I do it because of
The spell
That it's cast over me.
Meh. :)
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LostSiren111 Apr 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. Good for you for admitting to the world what you struggle with. I am sorry for people being unsympathetic and rude about it. :hug: I really like this. Thank you for writing it.
CorporateRockWhore Apr 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much, I'm glad you liked it. :hug:
Tintinytdj Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
"You'll think I'm sick
Sick in the head
And that makes me feel
Like I want to be dead."
Well then, this proves his point.
Wanting to be dead is caused by you being "sick in the head".

Not wanting attention yet letting him search for cuts on your body is contradictory.
Not wanting attention yet posting stuff like this on the internet is contradictory.
Complaining about being labeled as a cutter yet acknowledging your cutter-status is contradictory.
Me putting actual thought into this yet not caring about any of this is contradictory.
CorporateRockWhore Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"Wanting to be dead" is caused by depression, which is definitely not the same as being "sick in the head".

I don't let anyone search for cuts on my body. My guardians (my grandmother and my aunt) will look over my arms though, something that I can do nothing about. This has nothing to do with wanting attention.

I post stuff like this on the internet because it feels like a release. Also, I want to let other people who feel like this know that they are not alone. Somebody even said in a comment that this made them want to stop cutting. This has nothing to do with wanting attention.

It is hard to not acknowledge being labelled as a 'cutter'. Besides, I was using the terminology in my poem as a reference to point out to people that the label exists and how much it can hurt.

To be honest, I agree with your last point; you 'not caring' but taking time out of your day to be rude about my poetry/life clearly is contradictory. And it makes me think you are wanting the attention of a pissed-off reply. :)
Tintinytdj Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Suicidal tendencies are generally signs of serious mental problems.
I find it hard to believe that there aren't people outside of your guardians who know about the cuttening and yet do not actively search for your cuts and/or give you special attention because of your cutter-status, be it negative or positive.
Generally, people who feel like this are actively searching for poems just like this one.
Searching through the comments I've noticed that at least 99% of them are positive, and that you've replied to most of them.
Every comment is a little bit of positive attention, and you acknowledge that by thanking them for commenting by giving that attention back by commenting.
Using labels you know hurt yourself and/or others (but especially yourself) still seems contradictory to me; you can't really attach that much taboo to a word you casually use in poetry, can you?

I disagree with your last point, as I've never felt any gratification over my 300+ hours of doing stuff like this.
Alexisnotominous Feb 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Please for the love of the internet leave now and never come back, because you are acting ignorant. Do you fully understand what it is like to bring yourself to the point where you think that your life is worthless. Do you have personal experience with this because then if not who are you to judge when you have no personal or sentimental understanding. "sick in the head" is just a generalised term.
You call ColdKid an attention seeker yet here you are replying to her to get your point across you yourself are getting attention and looking at your Deviantart page it is something you are severely lacking.
What happened to freedom of speech when you are being called out by people like you who are brining the speakers down.
Opening up in many forms is medicinal and can help mental health.
Tintinytdj Feb 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ad hominem, ad hominem...
"And can help mental health."
And there you go.

"Yes, but 'mental problems' are not the same as being 'sick in the head'. "
And there you go.

"What happened to freedom of speech when you are being called out by people like you who are bringing the speakers down."
Because we shouldn't be free to speak back, apparently.
Alexisnotominous Feb 28, 2013  Student General Artist
There is constructive criticism and then there is childish insults in the face of defeat

Sick in the head is a derogatory term used in this piece of writing to demonstrate in some form mental problems could you please take the dick out of your ear and listen.
Tintinytdj Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Someone's mad~
CorporateRockWhore Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aw, thanks for sticking up for me; love you my BFF!!

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