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When I was a kid
I thought that ‘gay’ was just an insult
And as a result
I cried when a big kid called me it.

When I was a tween
My teacher said she was worried about two guys
Who always locked eyes
And I didn’t get why she was wrong to say it.

When I was a teen
I went on the internet and found out it all
When I started to fall
For both boys and girls and I didn’t get why.

When I was a teen
I made out with a girl from my school
It was pretty cool
But I was too scared to tell anyone.

When I’m an adult
I’m gonna tell my kids that it’s okay
To be bi or trans or gay
Or any other orientation
Because, well, it is.
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UmbriLovesEspi Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I was born into a stereotypical southern baptist family, where if you did anything wrong you'd burn in hell for eternity, so it took a long time for me to admit to myself I had a romantic interest in girls rather than boys. I was lucky to have a wonderful mother who accepted me as I am, since so many aren't near as fortunate. As of now, I'm happily engaged to my high school sweetheart, and we've been together for almost five years now. :heart: I can't tell you how happy I was to read this, since so many people never stop to question the horrible things people do to each other, simply because of who they love. I hope your words  will continue to inspire others the way it has inspired me.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Congratulations on your enagement! I'm a lebian too, and I'm still struggling with the idea of coming out - can I ask how you told your family? I just have no idea where to start. 

Thank you very much for the lovely comment :hug:
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UmbriLovesEspi Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Sorry for the late reply, I've been having computer issues lately. ^^; Well honestly, my mother was more intuitive than I had originally realized, and she asked me one day if my best friend at the time (my now fiance) was more than just a friend. I was a little afraid to answer, even though she's always told me she loves me no matter what, but we'd never discussed the possibility of me being gay or bi. I ended up admitting to her we were dating, and she smiled. Her exact words were, "You don't have to be afraid to tell me things like that. You're my daughter, and I'll always love and support you, because that's what every mother should do for their child. I don't care who you're with, as long as they make you happy, I'm happy." I really am lucky, since that almost never happens for people coming out, but for me it did. I can't promise things will work out so well for you, but as long as you find that special someone out, then isn't your happiness all that should matter to them? Even if things go south, don't let anyone tell you its wrong, because true love can never be wrong. Who knows? Maybe things might turn out well for you too. Either way, I wish you the best of luck! :)
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SophiaArtist Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love this. I live in a catholic family and my parents are serious homophobes. I'm straight, but I am 1000000000000% supportive of gay marriage. I wasn't always like this though. I really thought being gay was an insult, and I cried when someone thought I was gay for my female best friend. I love your writing, keep it up friend.
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puddlethecat Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
YES! JUST YES!
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BittersweetWanderer Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
YAY
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XxShadowRenaxX Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're an AMAZING writer!
Like, seriously, we share the same views on the world.
I really like this and the I Need Feminism poems.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much; I'm really glad you liked it! :)
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Xerxesia Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014  Hobbyist
Can i say, you're the most inspiring person i ever known in my whole life?
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Aw, thank you very much! :hug:
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gurtagon Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are one of the most inspiring people I've ever seen. All your beliefs I agree with 110%. You believe in so much equality and are such an open-minded positive person it's contagious. I'm only 14 but I still understand, and have experienced, some of the things you talk about. I live in the south of the USA, where people are incredibly "conservative" and have very strong opinions. Not everyone is like that, but you are piratically shunned if you are not religious, if you don't play a sport, if you don't have certain qualities you're expected to have, even if you don't support the LGBT community. I used to think "gay" was an insult too, and one time in class last year I was talking to these guys about how gay couples are the cutest thing and they thought I was insane and brought up how the "Bible said it wasn't OK for 2 people of the same gender to be together" and I said "So? Who cares? If people are in love does it even matter what the Bible thinks?"...big mistake. They absolutely flipped. They got other guys involved in the conversation and it was just horrible because I felt so bad for brushing the Bible aside like it didn't mean anything. Today, I consider myself an atheist. I don't believe in the Bible, but I am still open-minded to the possibility of there being an afterlife. 
 
What is your opinion on religion, Gods, and the Bible?
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much! :hug:

Personally, I'm an atheist but I have a respect for people of all religions. :)
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gurtagon Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem! :tighthug:
 
Me too! It was hard at first but I couldn't accept there being a God, but where I live people are extremely religious so I don't freely express my opinion. I also respect everyones' view so ugh you're so cool I wish everyone here is like you :XD:
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DragonElfe Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi there, I just wanted to inquire about the reason you 'couldn't accept there being a God,' because as a Christian it makes me curious. I would like to hear your opinion since you are obviously respectful of others and won't go all crazy on me as some people do.

I would like to say that, as far as I know, it is the act of people of the same gender having sex that is a sin. But so is stealing and murder and lying etc. But loving another person of the same gender, the emotional part, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I just wish more 'Christians' would stop being so judgmental and hypocritical and remember that our beliefs are centered on LOVE.

I adore this poem, by the way <3 <3
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UmbriLovesEspi Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I've only encountered a few people that can truly call themselves Christian, and you are definitely one of them. I stopped believing a long time ago, due to a multitude of reasons, but I still respect the people who are Christian, simply because I know a difference in opinion is never a reason to belittle or judge someone. One of my best friends in High School was a strong Christian, and she supported me and my girl friend. I even bowed my head and closed my eyes when I had dinner at her house and they would say prayer, simply out of respect for her family's beliefs. Your comment really made me smile, since its hard to find people out there, Christian or not, that are so accepting of others. You're a lovely person, my dear. Don't ever forget that. :)
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DragonElfe Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hug Awww, thank you so much! 
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UmbriLovesEspi Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
You're very welcome, m'dear! ^u^
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gurtagon Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey! I would love to share my opinion with you!
 
Okay, so let's get this straight: I was raised in a Christian house, went to Church until a few years ago when we kind of just...stopped going. I guess we got busy or something. Anyways, a couple of months ago I began questioning my religion. I was wondering how it was possible for there to even be a God, how does "a higher being" even exist? I went through mulititudes of denying it, then accepting it, having faith, losing hope, etc. Even to this day I am still wondering if maybe there is a real God up there, watching me question is motives. It's really hard for me sometimes because I'm so used to there being a God, one for me to pray to every night, one for me to say "God has a plan for me". So, I was sitting in Spanish class last December, around then, and I was thinking "How ridiculous is it that I seriously have been fooled in to thinking there is some other being out there, above me? Through the clouds? How is that possible?" I was thinking about the Earth, picturing it in my mind, and saying "How?" Don't get me wrong though, I honestly wish I was Christian. I wish I didn't curse, I wish I could be like all the other people around me who surround themselves with God's love and happiness and warmth and praise him. I wish I was like that, to believe in it...
But I just don't. I don't believe it, however, I'm not going to say "I don't believe it at all! Religion is total bullshit!" I'm going to say "People believe in what they believe in. I am completely open-minded to any religion. I won't judge anyone, I support gays, I don't care if you have sex before you're married, or if you curse. You can support what you want, I'll have my own thing." But clearly not everybody is totally open-minded, which is OK because they were raised to think their religion was the correct one. 
 
I feel almost bad saying this, but you are the first Christian I have met that is that open minded. You actually seem to respect my beliefs and acknowledge the fact that you shouldn't force your religion on me and tell me "You're going to burn in Hell." I was so glad when you asked me to hear my opinion! 
 
I agree, I do wish more Christians would stop being so judgmental and force their opinions on me and shut me out because of what I believe in (or don't). It's very true though! I (ironically enough) went to a Christian camp this summer, RYM, in Panama City, Florida. It was so much fun and I felt so happy on that trip, so filled with love and graciousness from God. Honestly, I do sometimes feel that pure happiness from God when I think of how loving he his, but then I think of how I don't believe in that kind of stuff but that's why I wish I did. So I could always feel that love, and the worst thing is that my mind and my body just won't accept it.
 
As you being a Christian, I have a few questions for you:
Do you ever doubt your religion? Question your God, Jesus, The Bible, and your beliefs?
How do you look at Atheists (I want the cold, hard truth)?
How do you know your religion is the correct one? Other people across the world think their religion is the correct one, so how do you know yours is correct?
Do you ever wish you didn't have rules on your religion (no sex before marriage, no same-sex person can lie together, etc.)?
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DragonElfe Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I am really happy to have this chat! I believe understanding others, or at least try to, is one of the best gifts you can give them. :)

And those people who say you'll 'burn in hell' will have quite the surprise waiting for them after death. They completely miss the point of their faith! Those kind of closed-minded people almost make me embarrassed to call myself a Christian sometimes. Except they just talk the talk, they don't walk the walk.
Even so, people look at those 'Christians' and judge all of us on them. It's really sad. Anyway, to your questions....

I do doubt. When I'm angry, of course, and also when I'm in bed at night and over-thinking. I doubt God's existence, when I'm lost and confused and don't feel like I'm getting an answer or help when I'm asking for it. I doubt when I ask for Him to speak to me, guide me, tell me what I'm meant to do and where I'm meant to be, and don't get a clear answer like I want.
If we didn't doubt, we wouldn't be able to make a choice, and God wants us to choose to follow him, to have faith and a relationship with him. We have the option, the freewill to not believe. There is no faith without doubt.

How do I know my religion is the correct one?
If there was irrefutable proof, it wouldn't be called 'faith,' would it? If there was no doubt, there would not be the freedom to choose whether to follow God or not. The extent of my proof is the Bible, what I feel in my heart, the times I have felt His presence (even though I doubted them later and tried to find 'logical' reasons for it) and the significant change I have seen in others, the blessings they have received.
If I am wrong, then so be it, at least I made people happy in my lifetime, treated them with love, helped them and promoted love and good things. If I am right then I have lost nothing, and gained everything. 
Other people may believe in their own religions as much as I believe in mine, and even more. They may give the same reasons I have. I will respect them all the same, as much as I can, I ill not force them into anything.

Atheists as a whole, I feel sad for them. They're going to miss out on wonderful things, they live without knowing that there is someone perfect who loves them unconditionally, which is more than a lot of parents in the world. They fear death because they don't know what happens after. They don't know, or they do and they reject it. Sometimes it makes me frustrated and angry too, which doesn't end with me just making a fool of myself. I don't understand them most of the time, but God loves them, so I shall do my best to follow that example, even if I slip up sometimes.

As for the last question, I don't wish there weren't rules. We need rules. I understand why the rules are there, the same reason a parent will have house rules. No going out in the middle of the night because it's dangerous, no taking things from strangers, no stealing the car and going for a joyride. Our Father is giving us rules so that we can be safe, so that we can be close to him, so that we live without sin. However, I will say that some rules I am in conflict with, at the moment I can't think of any but I'm sure I will tonight when trying to sleep :p

Also something that helps me is a story that can be found right here: philipchircop.wordpress.com/20…
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gurtagon Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow, that story seriously enlightened me...and your answers were legitament. You said how you know Athiests are going to miss out, but I feel like that's just the athiests who never allowed themselves to feel religion, as weird as it sounds. Also the very close-minded athiests. I agree with you on that too, people who are close minded like that don't open themselves up to possibilities. I am open to the possibility of there being a God and an afterlife, but I don't devote any time into religion (which is probably a bad thing...). 
 
I understand the rules in the Bible, I'm actually quite glad they're there. I'm also very happy religion exists, because many Athiests wish they weren't there. Religion gives people direction, and it helps keep their morals up. Without religion I'm not even sure how the world would work. But I'm sure it would not be as clean (even though many parts are not) as it is right now.
 
I know exactly what you mean by "except they just talk the talk, they don't walk the walk". You didn't explain it but you didn't have to. When I was Christian, I was so angry when people would put Bible verses in their Instagram bios, but not show up to Church, or disrespect God or the Bible. Those are considered "Social Christians". They just say they are Christians, but in reality they don't devote as much time to God as they pretend they do.
 
Honestly, I was so glad to talk to you because I have never had a totally civil conversation with a Christian and not been afraid of misjudgment, stereotyping, or total rejection. I think, in fact, you are the first person that's a Christian that I've opened up to completely about my beliefs. I wish it were that easy with everyone, but at the same time I'm glad there's diversity among religion.
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DragonElfe Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Glad to talk to you too! Thanks for giving your opinion :)
I've never had a totally civil conversation with anyone who wasn't Christian, though when I was younger that used to be my fault, to be honest. No one's perfect.
Also I know sometimes people also expect a big lecture about how sinful and horrible they are when they talk to a Christian, and that's neither fun nor loving and if you lecture me about anything I will stubbornly shut my mind off. Just conversations like this are all that's needed, respectful and compassionate. People don't change their minds because you tell them to.
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LadyNoiraile Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2014
The end made me think of Paulie's famous quote about love in the movie "Lost and Delirious". :D Have you seen it?

Great poem, by the way, I love the chronology of it and how it subtly accuses the impact of society on what a child would never have wondered about or struggled with throughout its life, if only people had acted a bit differently right from the start...
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I haven't, no. What's it about? :)

Thank you very much! :hug:
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LadyNoiraile Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014
It's a rather touching movie about three girls in a boarding school, and how they struggle with social expectations around them as it is brought to light that two of them are secretly in a relationship.
If you're interested in the little love-speech I mentioned, it can be seen on YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBflHL…
In the beginning, the girls in the class just argue about what they think love is; Paulie's speech starts after about a minute. It's not so much about homosexual love as about love in general, but I still very strongly related it to your poem, as she's also talking about the fact that love just is. (And she's gay, so I guess that also implies it has to be okay, fuck everybody else's opinion. :D) I've always found this scene of the movie quite inspirational.

You're most welcome. Some of your poems are amazingly inspirational; I always like reading new stuff from you!
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DLF66 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is what I tell my kids. It is a horrible waste of life to pretend to be something that you are not just to fit in with the rest of society.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Exactly. :)
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Tesuka-Hilu Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
True ima let my little boys where dresses... I believe in gender neutrality!
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Awesome! If I ever have kids, I'll let them choose what they wear, regardless of gender. :)
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Natureisnatural Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014
Exactly. I totally agree with you.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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DarkFireHeart62 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2014  Student Artist
The last verse is so true.
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grapeshotmemory Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014
Yes.
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TheScribblingScribe Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
"All men are created equal!" Unless you're female, LGBTQ, anything except a cishet white male. ~Declaration of Independance.

Wow, how equal, right?
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OnigiriPandahats Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Student General Artist
yet again im getting a strange exception from this, my mother always told me that people r born the way they r and ur born gay, bi, trans, etc.
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RainbowLight1 Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
If you like girls your gay, If you like guys your not. (Unless your a guy)
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Yatzstar Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
In my dictionary, 'gay' still means happy, like it did in the 1800's...how did it change from happy to homo?
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mythgirl61 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Sometimes I wonder if I'm bi or not... It's good to know that there's nothing wrong with it though. My best friend is lesbian, although we love each as friends. We've both clarified that we'd never date each other. There's nothing wrong with her and she's just like every girl. Anyway, this poem is really good!
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
There's absolutely nothing wrong with it whatsoever. :hug:

Thank you! :)
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mythgirl61 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
No prob!
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PureBlueVanilla Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014
First this is awesome and second I'm at the stage in life where I'm not sure if I'm straight or Les or Bi... IM SO CONFUSED!! I'll just have to wait and see. 
But I love you anyway ^_^
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks! To be honest, I think the only way to know for sure (and maybe not even then), is to make out with a person of each gender. Or just don't define yourself; labels are for boxes and jars, not people. :hug:
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PureBlueVanilla Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014
Well I think I might wait for my hormones so settle out first.... 
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:D
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EpicalnessAnonymus Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I used to feel really weird about the LGBT community, thinking it was gross and unnatural. Then, sometime when I was around 11 or 12 I started to realize I had developed crushes on girls throughout my life as well as boys. I tried to make excuses and deny that it was happening, but eventually through the Internet and learning some of my mom's friends were gay, I accepted I was bisexual. Now I don't want to be straight! XD
Sorry about spamming you with my life story, I thought it was kinda similar to your poem.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No, it's cool! I think I kind of had a similar experience. :)
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EpicalnessAnonymus Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh, cool :)
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Blackcardinal23 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I absolutely love your poetic style. It's marvelously simple (in a good way, don't misunderstand me) and that allows what you're message to get off so clearly and so genuinely. I agree with you so completely, and I really wish more people could look at things this way.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much; I'm really glad you like my style! :)
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