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I'm sixteen,
Doubt I'll see thirty
Hopefully my blade'll be dirty
Or something
And I'll die.

I don't want to die;
Just want it to stop,
Everything in my head
Telling me I'm better off dead.

I cut myself,
There.
I said it.
And you
Just read it.
I'm just some kid
Behind a screen,
So why should you care?

I'm not just 'some kid';
I'm thousands.
I'm the ones people laugh at,
Spit at,
Swear at,
Destroy.

I'm not a minority;
I'm a majority.
All those kids alone,
Bleeding,
Lying,
Hoping
That death will come.

See?
We're not hopeless.
We hope for
Death.
Literally wrote it as it came to me, so I know it sucks. Just felt like I needed to get it out.
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Mageofcats Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Oi, I find spontaneous poetry to be at least as meaningful as hours-long poetry; don't get upset over it. <3
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Manumanuvuka Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014
The thing about death
Or running out or meth
Is that people would finally know
Who you are

But I'd be a hypocrite to intend
Based on what I never said
It's my fault that I'm low
So far

I wrote my poems just in case
But don't worry; I will wait
Until they deserve to be needed to be read
And suicide wasn't the reason I was dead
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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backup12051997 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2014
Man! in some shit, eh? This writing is good(hope this help others too)
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :)
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backup12051997 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
Anytime, and especially because someone I know online in depressed state
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BrickxBlossom2501 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwww... ;-; this is so touching... It relates to me so much, good job. :)
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you :hug:
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BrickxBlossom2501 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem. :)
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Nocturneia Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This actually made me cry. That rarely ever happens when I'm by myself, but this made me cry a bit (somewhere between very sad and a bit relieved that someone understands) because one of my friends was complaining about "emos" who "can never be happy enough and cry a lot not because they're sad but because they want attention". When I was twelve I went through a phase where I couldn't be happy in the least, and that was when I heard my friend ranting. I felt betrayed and alone, and even so much later it takes a weight off to know I'm not. Reading this has reminded me of what that felt like, and I'm starting on as many ways as I can think of to help other people understand better. So it's made me sad that so many people are driven to taking their own lives, but it's made me hopeful that maybe we can one day reach a point where people understand each other better and try to help when someone's cutting rather than see how much further they can be pushed.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry it made you cry. :hug:

It really annoys me when people dismiss things like self-harm and depression as being attention-seeking. I self-harmed for three years (the last time was at the start of January this year) and a few times my own friends (although admittedly exasperated) accused me of attention-seeking. Whilst, in my case, it wasn't for attention, if someone does do it for attention then it's still a serious problem and should be treated as such.

Thank you for taking the time to comment. :)
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PureBlueVanilla Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014
For everyone that hopes to die remember;
That someone cares, 
And if no one does remember that I care,
If you've survived this long you can survive till it's over,
Stay alive to change the world, for the better,
Not worse as it will be without you,
You are Beautiful and perfect just the way you are,
Unlike the bullies that mean nothing,

Stay alive and strong And change the world for the better by living your life to the fullest.

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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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Vallestin Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
The thing I love most about you is that I cannot relate to you at all, but I know people who can, I read this, in the dark, out loud to myself, for them.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you :hug:
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ForgottenFears Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014
It gets the point across that it's intended for. It's true that people like this aren't hopeless. It's just that what we hope for society and even our own minds in a way tell us we shouldn't want. In truth what we really want is for the pain to end, the pain that no one sees tearing us apart, the infinite tears drowning us inside to subside so we can breathe. We want to be as normal on the inside as we pretend to be on the outside. We want so much and yet in reality it's so little, we just want it to stop.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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ForgottenFears Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014
Thanks.  Hug 
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BlackSheep6 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This felt like a slap in the face and I'm not sure why. If you believe me or not, I care. I care so much, people say I let things too close to myself. Well I can't help myself because it hurts my heart to know that there's many many kids, as you said, crying, cutting themselves, hoping their lives would be over. And what hurts even more is that I can't help. I mean, sure I can, anybody can, by not being a shit towards others and by not bullying others and generally try to be a decent person but I'm already a decent person, or at least I believe I am. I was bullied so that automatically made me allergic to violence and I couldn't bring myself to hurt people the way I've been hurt. So I find myself kinda helpless with the awareness of all this sadness...Christ, if only everything wasn't so shitty and complicated. Yes, I realise I sound like an idiot, well, sorry, I just take poetry seriously and if it evokes feeling in me, I like to say it because I believe that is some sort of acknowledgement for the author...it means they've done good work. 
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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anona111 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
God...this perfectly describes me... thank you! :huggle:
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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squareofpie Featured By Owner May 16, 2013
You say things I cannot find the words for. And I can relate very much to this. This is clever and absolutely beautifully written.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very, very much; I sincerely appreciate your comment! :hug:
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salmander1987 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013
*hugs* this is incredible it is well written and true which makes it even better imo
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:hug: Thanks! :D
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NinjAPixiEX3 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
And all these people behind the screen gotchu. <3
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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surfworldMajor Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is very true and the best ideas come and go just like that life is hard but keep living and it might get better
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :)
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lollimewirepirate Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I think you are important to God, because He created you to be you, don't be sad...I think you are a great poet and you didn't even know it!
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aw, thank you very much! :hug:
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ValentineRevenge Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You will see 30, even if I have to keep you in a little jar until then to make sure you make it. Don't hope for death, because then you can't continue to experience anything that makes you happy in life. For one, I don't want to see you croak, and I know there's quite a few others out here who want you to live to see 30. <3
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very, very much. You always know exactly what to say/type. :hug:
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ValentineRevenge Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome :huggle: I didn't know that I did, but hey! I have a new skill!:D
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keyoblivion Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
lovely
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :)
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Art-Greylace Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
Actually, it is really stunning. Well written.

And makes me wish I could give you a hug.

Instead, have some adorable pictures of some kid in a totoro costume.

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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much!

:hug:

Those pictures actually brightened my day by soooo much; thanks! :D
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Art-Greylace Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2013
No problem. Least I could do.
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alittlebitoffaith Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013
This does not suck! At all this is the truest thing I ever read especially the we're not hopeless we hope for death
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much :)
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alittlebitoffaith Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013
ur welcome
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Rosalinda16 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Though I have no personal experience on the topic, this is amazing, you are brilliant, and I hope things get better for you.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very, very much! :hug:
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the-stephy-powers Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very well written. I'm not sure if this is from personal experience, but I want to tell you that it does get better. It can't always stay dark. I mean eventually the sun will rise and things will get better, darkness only lasts so long. Eventually it will just be a faded memory that you won't be able to recall exactly.
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!

This is from personal experience and I sincerely appreciate your words; thank you. :)
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the-stephy-powers Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Message me if you ever need someone to talk to..
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Dark-Nayru Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013
It's well written. I hope for life and I wish those thousands could see it through my glasses too! :)
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks! :D
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