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I used to cut myself.

Some of the marks faded,
But some stayed
And now I’m forever jaded.
People have kissed my scars,
Others have turned away
But here is what I have to say;
It isn’t beautiful.

When it hurts to walk
Because your thighs are bleeding,
When you can’t talk
About the help you’re needing;
It isn’t beautiful.

When it’s boiling outside
But you have to wear sleeves
Because of your bloody little
Reprieves;
It isn’t beautiful.

When your friends
Are scared of you,
For you,
Of the things you do;
It isn’t beautiful.

When you feel so worthless,
So down and out,
Used up and empty,
And all you do is shout
But nobody hears,
Because you silence it
With sleeves;
It isn’t beautiful.

When they find out
And you see how much,
How deeply they care
And they hate themselves
For not being aware;
It isn’t beautiful.

When they take it away,
And monitor you
And you’re itching all over,
Desperate for it,
For one last hit
And you’re a nervous wreck;
It isn’t beautiful.

So please
Stop romanticising it.
Take it from a girl
With lines and lies
All up her
Arms and thighs;
It isn’t beautiful.
This is something I've been wanting to write for a while. I self-harmed for over three years, having finally stopped this January just gone. And something that really annoys me is when I see people romanticising it and making it out to be something beautiful. Maybe I even bought into that idea too, perhaps I even promoted it. But that's why romanticising something like self-harm is so dangerous; it makes it look like it's an okay thing to do, that it's cool and beautiful or whatever. It isn't. It's dangerous, painful and incredibly unhealthy. You hurt yourself and you hurt everyone around you, everyone who cares; even if you think there isn't anyone who cares, trust me, there always is. 

Sorry for the rant, but I really wanted to say it. If you ever need to talk about self-harm or if you have any questions, always feel free to note me. :hug:
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Flameboy007 Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
:')
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xDruchii Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014
My older brother is a paranoid schizophrenic. One of his symptoms is selfharm. He doesn't cut himself, he burns hmself, but i suppose the effects are the same. Speaking as a sibling, there is nothing, absolutely nothing beatiful about selfharm. It is either a serious mental illness or it is a symptom of one. The scars are up and down his arms and torso, and i get the urge to physically cringe when i see them. I can see how much it hurts the rest of my family, myself and my brother. If you feel the urge to selfharm, please seek help.

Btw, sorry for posting two comments, i just needed to write this after i read some of the other stories. I am very glad that you're doing better :)
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Fameisdead Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I used to do this... But I haven't since like...... I think December,
but to people who still do, (you can note me I don't mind ^^)
you re all beautiful so please stop cause you re all amazing and you shouldn't want to hurt yourself. Things get better :3 trust me
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CorporateRockWhore Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Well done for stopping - I'm really proud of you! :hug:
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Fameisdead Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:3 
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Yatzstar Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014  Hobbyist Filmographer
I consider myself blessed never to have struggled with self-harm, but I literally got teary-eyed reading these comments. To all out there who may need someone: there will ALWAYS be someone there to talk to, even if it doesn't seem like it.
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Nessie905 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow! This is a great poem.  I can relate to almost everything in it. I struggled with self-harm for 4 years and it's a horrible thing. It's an addiction and I also agree that people shouldn't be romanticising it. It's so serious. There are many times where I have been terribly afraid for my own life. But I still didn't seem to care. And that's how dangerous it can become.

I'm proud to say I'm 7 months, 1 week and 5 days clean. :) 
Recovery is so worth it every day! :hug:
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Flameboy007 Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
I hope you're still clean :)
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Nessie905 Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I am !! Almost 9 months :)
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Flameboy007 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2014
Well done! I'm proud ❤️
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