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I’m noticing things
I didn’t before;
Things that I
Just can’t ignore.

Kids getting shot
For the colour of their skin,
Loving being treated
As though it’s a sin.

Sexism running like blood
Through the veins of the media,
Kids killing kids
In High School Hysteria.

People dying instead of
Being who they are,
Children getting shot down
As they reach for the stars.

Faith forming the target
For society’s arrow,
You’re either in too deep
Or you’re way too shallow.

The faithful using the Prince of Peace
To excuse their hatred,
And yelling ‘terrorist!’
At the followers of Mohammed.

Women walking the streets at night
With fear in their hearts,
Men being told to ‘man up’
When their soul is in parts.

Children starving to death
In the land of plenty,
Bigots with medieval views
In the twentieth century.

So,
Hell yeah,
We’re angry.
Good news of the greatest kind; I got my English Lit/Lang remark back on Monday, and I have gone up by 22 marks! This is a bit worrying though, that my paper was marked so drastically wrong in the first place. So if I have one piece of advice to give to you guys, always demand a remark if you got way off what you were expecting. It might be expensive (my remark cost £55), but it's so worth it for getting the grades for university, and if you go up a grade they usually give you your money back (they did in my case). Also with regards to college, my presence on here might be sporadic at best, as I have shit tonne of work to get through. Sorry!

My UCAS application is nearly done. I've filled out all the sections and have written my personal statement, so all I've got to do now is get it all checked off and sent! My dream uni (Winchester) offers this deal called a 'compact', whereby if I go to one of their feeder colleges (I do) and fit the criteria, they guarantee to give me 'serious consideration', a lower offer (i.e. 200 points instead of 300 to get in), and a guaranteed place in halls if I do get in. The criteria I fit include being bereaved and getting special funding. I was explaining it to my best friend, and she had the audacity to tell me that it wasn't fair. She said that she wished she could get it, and it wasn't her fault that she didn't qualify. Like, seriously? You wish you had a dead mother? Are you for fucking real? I just don't think she thought before she spoke, and she honestly doesn't know how lucky she is to not qualify, y'know? And the whole point of the compact is to level the playing field, so kids who are disadvantaged get a help-up. Just, urgh. 

So, in November I'm going to see Frank Iero (formerly of My Chemical Romance) supporting Mallory Knox. I'm considering maybe selling my tickets because it's standing room only, and I'm not entirely comfortable with big crowds. I mean, I really want to go just to see Frank, but I don't know if I'll be able to cope with it. I guess I'll decide nearer the time.
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Reading: City of Ashes - Cassandra Clare
  • Watching: Hollyoaks
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Shit, I miss you.
No. I miss
You when you were U
And I was s
And together we were Us.

Your eyes touched me,
Soft as angel feathers,
And I let you see
All through the wood
Of my own coffin,
Through my layers of sin
And into the blackhole universe
Of my insides.

You were a supernova,
Star girl,
Hair a bouquet of honey curl.
Your body was a dancehall,
Full of life,
Rhythmic heartbeat
And you gave me the treat
Of a dance.

Fingers interlocked
Like organic handcuffs,
Your skin electric-shocked
Me into the sky.
Sharp and painful,
Stunningly beautiful.
And you never even
Told me why.

Your lips pushed letters
Through the letterbox red slits
On my wrists,
Kisses like razors
Creating cuts that wouldn’t bleed
Until you were no longer
U.
And I was just s, lower case.  
Alone.
So, as some of you may have read in my latest poem ('A Confession'), I am a lesbian. And, honestly, I am really surprised by the reaction. I thought I was going to lose watchers, not gain them! Thank you very, very much for all of the supportive comments; they easily outweigh the nasty ones. Due to the sheer volume of comments, I don't think I will be able to respond to them all, so just know that I am thankful and feel free to note me if you want to talk. I think I will wait a while before I tell my family; I want to do it at the right time and when I know that I have the right words to use. I might wait until I'm eighteen (in January), just because I think that gives me something to aim for, y'know? 

I have finally got off my ass and started the UCAS application process. And by that I mean I have written two hundred words of my personal statement. God, applying to uni is way harder than I had envisaged. I'm applying to four (Winchester, Chichester, Farnham, and Portsmouth), all to do creative writing courses. Are any of you guys applying to uni at the moment? Do any of you lovely people have advice for personal statements? 

Is it too early for me to be excited for Christmas? I've already started gift-shopping! I just love the festive season. It really brings everyone together, and brings out the best in people. Also, there is awesome food and TV. And who doesn't love getting presents? Are you guys excited for Crimbo yet or is it just me?
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Hesitant Alien - Gerard Way
  • Reading: A Girl is a Half-formed Thing by Eimear McBride
I am gay.
I am a girl who likes girls.

God,
You have no idea what that took,
How my hands shook
Over my laptop keys.
Please, please
Don’t hate me.

Will I lose friends?
Well that depends,
I suppose,
On what kind of people
They are.
Not my fault.
Or is it?
I just don’t know
Anymore.

I’ve been with boys
And I’ve got with girls,
And it’s feminine fingers
That I prefer
Raking through
My blonde curls.

I know, I know
This poem sucks
But this isn’t about
Literary merit.
It’s about me
Coming clean,
Coming out
In the only way
I know how
To say
What I am.

I am a lesbian.
A Confession
This is something that took a hell of a lot for me to write. My sexuality is something I have been questioning for the past three years or so and after a hideous amount of soul-searching and thinking and looking at pictures and staying up all night crying, I know for sure what I've been trying to deny for some time; I am 100% gay. I have not confided this information to anyone I know in real life. I'm not sure if I'll tell my family; I live with my grandparents (they are my legal guardians) and I'm honestly not sure how they will react, seeing as they come from a time where being gay was generally frowned upon. I'm scared of telling my friends, because I don't really have many and I can't afford to lose any. Anywho, I'm getting off topic. I am gay, and this is me coming out. 


I've never said this on any of my poems before, but please, please don't be an asshole in the comments.


Criticise the poem, but please don't criticise my sexuality. 
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I know that no matter how I start this, it will be as awkward as fuck, so I'll just start with my age. I am seventeen, and I live in England, in the arse-end of nowhere where the most excitement we get is a new piece of graffiti at the village bus stop. Yeah.

Music is my life; rock, emo, punk and metal mainly. My all time favorite band is My Chemical Romance, tying with Panic! At The Disco and Fall Out Boy. I'm also into: Kuroshitsuji, Hetalia, danisnotonfire, AmazingPhil and SLOTHS.

The bands I have seen live are; Funeral For a Friend, Lower Than Atlantis, Kids in Glass Houses, All Time Low, All-American Rejects, The Blackout, Blink-182, We Are The Ocean, Pure Love, Gerard Way, Fearless Vampire Killers, Tonight Alive, Chiodos, Green Day, Kaiser Chiefs, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, and Black Veil Brides. So far, I think that Green Day were the best.

I'm in my second year at college, where I am taking Law, English Literature and Language, and History. I hope to go on to university to do a course in Creative Writing and Journalism.

So yeah; I'm some seventeen-year-old Brit kid in the middle of nowhere who is best friends with a hamster. Nice to meet you!





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I'm thinking of recording a cover. What song should I do? 

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Good news of the greatest kind; I got my English Lit/Lang remark back on Monday, and I have gone up by 22 marks! This is a bit worrying though, that my paper was marked so drastically wrong in the first place. So if I have one piece of advice to give to you guys, always demand a remark if you got way off what you were expecting. It might be expensive (my remark cost £55), but it's so worth it for getting the grades for university, and if you go up a grade they usually give you your money back (they did in my case). Also with regards to college, my presence on here might be sporadic at best, as I have shit tonne of work to get through. Sorry!

My UCAS application is nearly done. I've filled out all the sections and have written my personal statement, so all I've got to do now is get it all checked off and sent! My dream uni (Winchester) offers this deal called a 'compact', whereby if I go to one of their feeder colleges (I do) and fit the criteria, they guarantee to give me 'serious consideration', a lower offer (i.e. 200 points instead of 300 to get in), and a guaranteed place in halls if I do get in. The criteria I fit include being bereaved and getting special funding. I was explaining it to my best friend, and she had the audacity to tell me that it wasn't fair. She said that she wished she could get it, and it wasn't her fault that she didn't qualify. Like, seriously? You wish you had a dead mother? Are you for fucking real? I just don't think she thought before she spoke, and she honestly doesn't know how lucky she is to not qualify, y'know? And the whole point of the compact is to level the playing field, so kids who are disadvantaged get a help-up. Just, urgh. 

So, in November I'm going to see Frank Iero (formerly of My Chemical Romance) supporting Mallory Knox. I'm considering maybe selling my tickets because it's standing room only, and I'm not entirely comfortable with big crowds. I mean, I really want to go just to see Frank, but I don't know if I'll be able to cope with it. I guess I'll decide nearer the time.
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Reading: City of Ashes - Cassandra Clare
  • Watching: Hollyoaks

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